Thursday, March 22, 2012

Borderline coverline temps

So, my coverline on my chart is usually between 97.9 and 98.1. To day was the first day I managed to temp after AF and 98.1. Enough to make me want to test AGAIN.  Pointless thought, because I tested around CD4 and big FAT NEGATIVE! 


Also, I went to a doctor over my continual foot pain, and it turns out it is broken! So, TTC might be a little on hold if the fracture boot doesn't take care of the issue and I need surgery!

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Will the real Aunt Flo please stand up?

I hate when AF comes early. She came Friday, and other than the bleeding, I've felt pretty great. Until today. After we came home from bowling, I had to help DH with the broken mower, and I just started getting really cranky. I went to wash my hands at the sink, and as I was leaning against the sink, it felt like when a cat sprints across the room to one end and back, like twice. (only vertical) Or like something swimming loops.  Then, I started getting a sensation like a root had been pulled, and now semi-bad to bad cramps. 

Here are some of the AF/IPS symptoms that just flared up in the last hour or two since that happened:



  • no appetite AND an empty feeling.
  • Slightly nauseous. Sometimes I have the feeling like I'll gag, in the back of my throat.
  • A sudden spike in my sense of smell
    • I opened the fridge and was thinking there is something ROTTEN in here---five minutes ago I didn't notice it then!
  • Cranky/Moody
  • Fatigue
  • Throbbing, sore nips--not just sore to the touch, but radiating a bruised feeling.
But I've been bleeding for 2-3 days now. And, it's been more flow than usual---WTF! I really think it is from AF coming early. Because today would have been the day she started if things had been regular. Ugggggghhhh. Yuck!


And yet.....

The insane, crazy, obsessed TTCer in me (who I managed to keep mute for the first hour) sparked the idea that sudden onset of pregnancy symptoms may mean that I AM pregnant. But if I am, that would suck, because I've been bleeding WAY too much than is normal. I think if I remember that thought when the idea of it being IB hits, I might be able to find some peace instead of obsessing about the inevitable BFNs. Because as much as I want to be pregnant, I also would not want to miscarry again. I'm torn. 

Saturday, March 17, 2012

My first cycle on Bee Fertile

So, yesterday, AF showed, making my nephew's 1st birthday CD1. *sigh* Anyhow, time to analyze my first cycle on Bee Fertile!  So, overall, I would say that my PMS symptoms after O were more stable and increased intensity.

Previous cycles, a symptom like, tender breasts would be very tender one day, less tender the next, and then increase in intensity.



THIS cycle, the symptoms that hit started out low, then increased in intensity steadily. Unfortunately, my spotting started out very light at 5&6DPO, then increasing again on 8&9 DPO, and by 11AM on 10DPO, AF was in full-flow. 

I WAS pleasantly surprised to find out that I did not experience an increase in depression, either in the TWW or since starting AF. I was a little weepy at times, but not anything too bad.

I do hope that next time my LP gets back to 11-12 DPO--it had been lengthening, but hopefully this is just my body's reaction to a new combo of supplements---let's hope next cycle I see an increase in my LP, and the easier mood changes like this cycle. And, you know, a BFP would be nice, too!

Disclaimer: Although the Bee Fertile supplements were provided to me at no charge, all opinions are my own. Trust me, I 'll give you the good, bad and in-between with an un-varnished eye!

Saturday, March 10, 2012

What does it mean when your cycle is messed up?

That is what I ask myself. Yes, cycle's change. You can have a consistent pattern six cycles in a row, and just when you seem to have identified the pattern, it changes. If ONLY for that one cycle. Just to show you that you can't ever be definite when it comes to your body.  I don't know how many times I've seen posts on forums or pregnancy sites claiming that "royal jelly messed up my cycle!" Replace the underlined word with the newest supplement to be touted as the infertility cure. I've seen it said about Soy Isoflavones, Vitex (chasteberry), and any number of other blends or new supplements.

Here is the cold hard truth. These supplements are supposed to make your cycle change. Yeah. I said it.

When something changes that is good, we sigh in relief or jump for joy and think, "Yes! It worked" or something to that effect. When something changes that is not what we were hoping for or expecting, it messed it up or didn't work.  After 3 years of attempting to conceive successfully, I will admit that many (ok, most) of the times that my cycle took a drastic turn, I was moaning and complaining with the rest of my TTC pals. But later, because hindsight is 20/20, I saw how perhaps these changes, although not the immediate miracle I was longing for, these changes are what just might push me towards that happy ending in the form of a healthier cycle.

The first time I tried Royal Jelly, I loathed the increase in PMS symptoms AFTER AF, that made me insanely paranoid that I had actually become pregnant but was having early bleeding. Which when you think about it, isn't a great sign anyway. BUT, one thing I did notice about my flow, was it turned from dark and clotty, to thin, bright red. Almost really EWCM with blood. And from what I've read, a bright red, non-clotty flow is a healthy one. So, although it was inaugurated by some killer cramps, the likes of which I had not seen since my teen years, I took this as a sign I was headed in the right direction.

So to sum up the good things that happened when my cycle "messed up":

  1. Healthier, cleaner flow
  2. Symptoms more similar to adolescence, which let's face it, are generally more fertile than your 30's . 
  3. Lengthening of LP to just around 11-12 consistently. Also, spotting before AF is now negligible, and sometimes absent.
So, I recognized a temp pattern in my early pre-O temps. Around 5-7 days after a "false O" that occurs about the 2nd week of my cycle (CD's 7-12), I get my true O. I have to say what was most frustrating to me was my CBEFM! After 2 lows, I just kept getting Highs. And 3 days after FF gave me cross hairs, still only High! I will say though, that looking at the sticks, they've read closer to lows that I've had in the past. The closest to a Peak was about 3 days before FF said I O'd, where both lines were present, but quite faint. 

Yet, here is my chart today. 
Fertility pre-O pattern O found, Final O observing pattern, no Peak on CBEFM

9 days later I get my O. 2 days past the longest stretch between my "false O" and true O. Plus no High on my CBEFM. But as you can see, my clear Fall-back rise pattern, which has only failed me a few times. So I'm sold. Goodbye CBEFM, I might give you ONE more shot next cycle. But did the Bee Fertile "mess up" this cycle? Not really. Because in order to fix something, sometimes you have rebuild it piece by piece. Lay the foundation, shift a few things here, add some things there, and eventually, your building is functioning more effectively. But it takes time, and sometimes it won't work right away. 

Besides, if you read the literature on Bee Fertile, it is not claiming a quick fix. It lets you know that it becomes most effective after 3 cycles. If you get knocked up in cycle 1 or 2, you're just lucky!  I hope I get that luck!


Disclaimer: Although the Bee Fertile supplements were provided to me at no charge, all opinions are my own. Trust me, I 'll give you the good, bad and in-between with an un-varnished eye!

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Fertility charting pattern prediction pt3


So, in my last post, Fertility charting pattern prediction pt2, I expected O to occur on either Sat or Sun. Well, I stayed over at my SIL's last night (sat night) and I managed to do my CBEFM---another High. Hmmmm. Well, the 3 days it seemed to occur were 5-7....Monday O would be 7 days after the "false O" so, perhaps it will occur then?

It's possible that since I started the Bee Fertile supplement regimen this cycle, that part of it's job in balancing the hormones could be shifting my patterns of O. Still feeling different O symptoms, such as BB tenderness--today, very achy back. So, I guess we'll see for tomorrow what my temp does and if I finally get my Peak!

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Fertility charting pattern prediction Pt 2

So, if you read my post about an Interesting Chart Pattern I discovered, here's a followup to it! Yesterday, I posted about noticing a "false O" after AF that usually proceeded O by about 5-7 days. So, with my "false O" being on Sunday (2/26) CD7, I looked ahead about 6-7 days and see that I should O around this weekend, Sat Mar 3 or Sun Mar 4. It would be a kind of early one for me, although I have O'd on CD13 before.

So, I predicted that today would be my first High on my Clearblue Easy Fertility Monitor (CBEFM). And so it was!

Here is a pic of my chart today, with the green marks I added predicting possible O dates and readings on my CBEFM.

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Also, I noticed yesterday my nips started hurting, which has progressed to a faint bruised feeling on the sides of my BBs--all classic signs of approaching O.

I have to say that with the Bee Fertile supplements, I feel a stabilization of my cycle symptoms. They follow the same familiar pattern, but are more stable and consistent. Previously with Vitex, my moods have become despondent and alternatively happy.  With Royal Jelly I get some stabilization, but eventually the severity of the PMS symptoms during my period took its toll.

Since my period ended and I've started the Bee Fertile regimen, I've noticed a very stable mood, if a little weepy and nostalgic at times, but never so overpowering that I felt swept away. I also feel I have improved energy. But this is the "calm before the storm" so to speak. This is the one time in my cycle I feel "normal" As O approaches, the symptoms and my analysis of them increase and my mood becomes more erratic. I'm praying that this will bring a welcome change that also leads to increased fertility!

So, I'm not really doing Sperm Meets Egg plan faithfully. But with this new prediction, I'm hoping to use it to plan and hit the 3days before O and O. Since today was High, I gotta get busy!

Disclaimer: Although the Bee Fertile supplements were provided to me at no charge, all opinions are my own. Trust me, I 'll give you the good, bad and in-between with an un-varnished eye!